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Shannon Beador is making ready to enter a wellness retreat after being left “devastated” by her current cut up from John Janssen.
As each she and John talk about their breakup, which occurred in late November, only one week after The Actual Housewives of Orange County season 17 wrapped manufacturing, Shannon, 58, revealed she was fully “blindsided” when her now-ex-boyfriend knowledgeable her he was “carried out” with their three-and-a-half yr relationship.
“All I can do is repeat in my head what he stated to me whereas we had been filming,” Shannon informed PEOPLE on January 11. “We had been in a fantastic place. However seven days later, when the cameras had been down, it was a very totally different story. He informed me he was carried out with the connection. And to listen to what he stated to me then was completely devastating.”
“I’ve by no means beloved anybody extra in my life,” she continued. “I used to be hopeful this was the person I used to be going to spend the remainder of my life with. I needed it to work out. I’ve by no means beloved anybody like I’ve beloved John. However clearly, he didn’t really feel the identical approach.”
In the meantime, in line with John, 59, his determination to name it quits with Shannon was “tremendous exhausting” and got here after he realized they wouldn’t go the space.
“I’ve been in ache over it,” he insisted. “It’s unhappy as a result of I like Shannon very a lot. I’ve beloved her extra deeply than any lady in my life. She’s one in all a sort; so humorous and beneficiant and vigorous and adventurous. We’ve got a connection that’s not like something I’ve ever had. And I do know that for so long as I stay, I’ll by no means meet anybody like her once more. However that doesn’t imply we’re proper for one another for the remainder of our lives.”
“It doesn’t make sense to be collectively when you don’t imagine in it,” he added.
As for why he waited till RHOC season 17 had wrapped, John stated he didn’t need to humiliate Shannon on digicam.
“The very last thing I needed to do is damage Shannon, however I do assume I did the suitable factor for the each of us,” he shared. “We’re two individuals who love one another very a lot, however love will not be at all times sufficient. And whereas I do know Shannon sees it as I’ve stated issues to her I by no means meant, I hope she’ll be capable of see that there’s no unhealthy individual right here. It’s two actually good individuals who couldn’t make it work.”
Following their breakup, Shannon and John crossed paths at two College of Southern California video games. And, Shannon was “hopeful” they may “discover a approach ahead.” Nonetheless, being round each other “solely made it tougher” for each of them they usually’ve saved their distance ever since.
“The vacations had been very, very troublesome,” she confessed. “I couldn’t imagine he wasn’t right here, and there could be days I might simply cry myself to sleep. However it’s a brand new yr, and I’m prepared for a recent begin.”
In line with Shannon, she’s heading to the Golden Door well being and wellness retreat in Escondido, California, the place she visited in 2016 amid relationship turmoil with ex-husband David Beador, 58, the daddy of her three daughters, Sophie, 21, and twins Stella and Adeline, 18 (he additionally shares 23-month-old daughter Anna with spouse Lesley Beador.
“Being on the Golden Door the primary time gave me readability in my relationship and helped me discover the energy to maneuver ahead on a path of independence. I’ve little question that returning will as soon as once more present me with the angle and therapeutic to start out this subsequent chapter from a spot of peace,” Shannon defined, including that she’ll return to the power later this month.
In closing, John stated he thinks “the world of Shannon” and desires “the most effective for her.”
“She deserves that,” he said.
The Actual Housewives of Orange County season 17 is anticipated to premiere on Bravo someday later this yr.